Today has not been my day at all
First of all i woke up this morning and right away just felt like crying and did all my anxiety has just built up and built up and today had to be the day that i couldn't stop crying and it was my sisters graduation. I didn't end up going and i think she is mad at me. All i can say is that if it would have been the other way around i would understand but i guess thats what makes us different. When they all got home she didn't speak to me or anything.
So, while everyone was gone i cried more, i had a panic attack and was hyperventilating to the point my face almost felt numb. My mom told me that she wanted me to get out and get some sun so i went out and sat on the deck for awhile but as i got up to come in wouldn't you know i somehow broke a chair! I had leaned my knee on it and my knee went right through! If i wasn't so upset i probably would have laughed. I then went and sat on the front porch and rocked in the rocking chair and just tried to relax.
A little earlier my mom, dad, cousin kellie, her husband and two kids came over and we ended up down at the community days festival in our town. There were lots of people all over and that kinda made me more anxious but i did get a funnel cake and lemonade so that was a plus. We are home now and i have a killer headache but i wanted to drop by and update this again.
I hope everyone is having a good night