At Least Im an Orange!

Happy Birthday

2010-09-26T18:07:00.000-07:00

Today is a wonderful person's Birthday.
This person is an amazing, beautiful, funny, and just down right Awesome!
I am very very happy to have her in my life!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ANNA!

Im wishing you the best day ever!

Love ya,
Lindsay xoxoxo

Time Flies

2010-09-20T12:50:00.000-07:00

Lately, i've been thinking about my Grandma and just how much i really miss her. Just the other day i was telling my Mom how I am sad that my younger cousins didn't get to know her like i did. I spend every weekend at my Grandparents house, me and my cousin Thomas would go to church with them every Sunday. Grandma was the teacher for the little kids 2-5 year olds and you could always tell how much she loved it! On Saturday night she would put her hair up in the soft foamy pink rollers and get everything ready for the morning. She was always awake first and she would tell us to go wake up Grandpa. We would sneak in the room get on the bed and wake him up with Kisses on the cheek. Help us get ready and make us breakfast while Grandpa got ready. She always wore a flowered dress and stockings. I remember she would keep them in the remote holder that layed over the arm of her chair and she would sit down in her chair take them out and she put them on so expertly. She would scrunch them up to the toe, stick her foot in and bring them up perfectly. That is something i will never forget about her.

During the summers while I was on vacation from school i would ride my bike to their house which was a block away and spend the days there. Grandma and I would do lots of things together...We played Chinese Checkers she would sit in her chair and i would get the wooden chopping block from the kitchen and put it between us and we would play for hours. I also loved doing jigsaw puzzles with her. It didn't matter if we had done the same one over and over I just loved being with her. We would sit at the dining room table all day doing a puzzle, talking or not and just loving being in the company of one another. Grandpa would walk past a few times pick up a piece find where it went and then go sit down which i always found so amusing.

These are the kind of things i so wish that my little cousins could have known. Instead they saw the Grandma who was sick, who didn't know peoples names, who would wander around the house not sure of anything. Seeing her like that broke my heart so much. When she started to really get sick she would carry around a bright orange comb with her. To me it was like it was a secrety for her, like a little kid has a secrety blanket. She would walk around mumbling not even really making sense in what she was saying but like she needed to say something but couldn't. During the time between her getting sick i didn't get to see her much. My Dad was taking all of this very badly and would stay away.... Which in turn kept me away from her. I hate that i had to miss so much of being with her, but, understand that it was so hard for my Dad. He would say "That isn't my Mom" or "Thats not the Mom i knew"

This November it will be 3 years since she has passed away. November 24, 2007 a night i will never forget a night the world lost one of the most wonderful people in the world.

You are always in my Heart and always in my Thoughts. I love you.
xoxo Lindsay

Struggling and Struggling

2010-08-29T15:22:00.000-07:00

Its times like these when i feel like nothing is ever going to change, things will never get better and I'm going to be trapped in the state I'm in forever! But then in the back of my mind there is that little voice telling me things will be alright, I will make it through and to just take things a step at a time and its a constant struggle between good and bad. You would think i was in one of those cartoons when the person has a devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other shoulder bickering back and forth.
I've been struggling again for awhile now... Things are just not going the way I have ever planned them to go. I had been fine for months, about 9 months to be exact of no anxiety, happiness and just well, being me! Its crazy how one thing can happen or even things you have stored away for so long come flooding back and screw everything up again. I was taking big leaps forward and now I've taken giant leaps back to where i started and don't want to be.
Now, I know some of you might think well why don't you just 'Suck it up' or 'Fight through the feelings' but until you have actually felt what i feel and know what i go through on a day to day basis I think you would change your mind pretty quick to just 'Suck it up.'
I find myself saying and thinking a lot..."Why can't i just be Normal!" but really What is 'Normal' is there really such a thing?
I am going to be working on getting back to being Me again! The Me I want to be! The Me i know i can be! It might take awhile but I am going to try my hardest to do it.

I Believe In Myself! I Believe In Myself! I Believe In Myself!

Reflect Your Life!

2010-08-12T17:51:00.000-07:00

Brother and Sister team of Caroline and Drew Yacu created Reflect to help empower others all over the world usingthe strength of affirmations and to spread belief, support, and encouragement. Please come and help support them byvisiting their website.

Boring Day

2009-12-08T15:43:00.000-08:00

Today was a pretty boring day...I woke up at 10am to my phone buzzing beside me and was pretty annoyed! My Mom was calling me because she forgot to grab a needle for her shot that she now has to take for her blood sugar. The only way for me to get her the needle was to walk! Do you know how cold it is out there?! Do you?! Our high for today was 36 degrees can you say EWW?! Lucky no snow yet but i do believe its coming...and very soon!
So i bundled up, put on Jeans, Tshirt, a Hoodie, my New cute hat and my Boots just cause they are cute and i wanted to wear them haha! plus put on my coat! Picture me as the little brother in 'A Christmas Story'. Not really but i was ready to head out.
Its only about a 5-10 minute walk from my house and when i got to the store and up to the counter where my Mom was her boss looked at me and said "Did you just walk here?" lol DUH!!
So, i stayed down and talked with Mom for awhile and i had some breakfast (mmmm blueberry muffin!) and thawed out before i was going to have to make the walk back home...Uphill might i add! But lucky me!! One of my Mom's co-workers took me home!
Now, i've been home, finished filling out my Christmas cards (only needs stamps), put in a load of laundry. Pretty good day if you ask me!

I hope you all had a wonderful day too! Hopefully tomorrow is a little more productive...might start cleaning out my room AHHHHHHH!

Love and Tackle Hugs,
xoxoLindsay

Awakening

2009-12-07T09:51:00.001-08:00

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” -Maria Robinson

I think this quote really says a lot about me and how i have been feeling. I have again been struggling with my anxiety and for a long time I wish i could just start over with a new beginning and everything just be okay, but i know that is not possibly so i have to take it one day at a time and know that i can make it through and come out just fine!
A major thing i have become aware of is that I need to take care of me and not put others problems and worries before my own. This is a hard hard thing for me to do because for the longest time that's all i have done and i think that is a reason why my anxiety has gotten so out of hand. I hide my own feelings away to help others when all that is doing is hurting me more.
I have recently been going to see a counselor which has been helping me tremendously in figuring all this out. I have only went for 3 sessions so far and the last time i was there she was so shocked at how well i have progressed! She told me "I noticed you seemed happier just when i came out and got you from the waiting room"
I told her that I just know what i need to do and i've decided i can't put it off any longer that i just really want to be happy again! Its been so long since i have been truly happy but i think i am on my way to recovery and finding that happy place again.
I know its not going to happen over night and its going to take some time but I think im now in the right mind set and ready for the work its going to take to make it happen.

I would never get through this if it wasn't for my family and friends and i just want to take a minute and thank you all for everything you have done! Even if it is just to listen or a shoulder to cry on i really really appreciate everything! You are all in my heart always and i am very blessed to have you.

Love and Tackle hugs to all
xoxoLindsay

Much Better Day

2009-05-31T17:16:00.000-07:00

Today was a much better day.

-Slept in til about 11 i was so drained!
-Ate Chips for Breakfast (lol)
-Went with Sarah to the festival this afternoon...its the last day and she wanted to play a few games...I won her a stuffed penguin and i won a goldfish but ended up giving it to a little kid on the way out :)
-Came home and me and mom went shopping for a few things for me for my trip...i got a shirt and a skirt wOOt
-Dad made dinner..Grilled a Roast and Corn on the Cob, also had baked beans and Parmesan Noodles...YUM

Now i am stuffed and laying in bed

I hope everyone else had a good day too :)

5-30-09

2009-05-30T17:02:00.000-07:00

Today has not been my day at all

First of all i woke up this morning and right away just felt like crying and did all my anxiety has just built up and built up and today had to be the day that i couldn't stop crying and it was my sisters graduation. I didn't end up going and i think she is mad at me. All i can say is that if it would have been the other way around i would understand but i guess thats what makes us different. When they all got home she didn't speak to me or anything.
So, while everyone was gone i cried more, i had a panic attack and was hyperventilating to the point my face almost felt numb. My mom told me that she wanted me to get out and get some sun so i went out and sat on the deck for awhile but as i got up to come in wouldn't you know i somehow broke a chair! I had leaned my knee on it and my knee went right through! If i wasn't so upset i probably would have laughed. I then went and sat on the front porch and rocked in the rocking chair and just tried to relax.

A little earlier my mom, dad, cousin kellie, her husband and two kids came over and we ended up down at the community days festival in our town. There were lots of people all over and that kinda made me more anxious but i did get a funnel cake and lemonade so that was a plus. We are home now and i have a killer headache but i wanted to drop by and update this again.

I hope everyone is having a good night

Why?

2009-05-29T21:11:00.000-07:00

Why do i let myself get upset over something that happens to someone else? Can anyone tell me? What a day is all i can say... UGH

Seven, Seven, SEVEN !

2009-05-28T00:25:00.000-07:00

Here is whats been going on :

1. Graduated from College- I am now am the owner of a shiny new Associates Degree! Well, I still have some stuff to take care of with the school so i don't actually have my degree yet but i will!

2. Broke up with Boyfriend who cheated on me- I found out some stuff about him and looks like when he was not with me he was bringing his Ex to his apartment...pffffft all i can say is i hope they are happy together.

3. Going on a trip to Illinois in 8 days to see Lisa Williams for the 2nd and 3rd time- I cannot wait for this trip it will be the first trip i ever took without my family PEACE OUT!

4. I want to start doing Reiki- I love helping people and i think this is the perfect step in achieving that.

5. My anxiety has came back a lot and im working on keeping it in check. Doing better but i still have my moments.

6. I cleaned my room out and got rid of some stuff but its still messy lol i have tooooo much crap!

7. Was hired for my first job by my Aunt who is starting up a company and i made her Logo, Buisness Card, Letterhead and Envelope. It was a lot of fun to do and im almost finished just a few things to fix up.

I have really sucked at keeping up with posting here but maybe just maybe i can get back into the swing of things.

Anxiety Blah!

2009-02-18T11:50:00.000-08:00

Today i am having an anxiety filled day...i hate that it just comes out of no where!

:(

I want these shirts hehe!

2009-01-03T11:01:00.000-08:00

And Kase I found this one for you! Shirts found at http://store.cottonfactory.com/aaaviewall.html

Merry Christmas

2008-12-25T20:55:00.000-08:00

Some Pictures from the last couple days:

Christmas Eve:

Christmas Eve Kisses for my Cute Puppy!!

Waiting for everyone to arrive last night...i got bored hehe

Jasper got tired watching us all run around like crazy trying to get everything set up

Christmas Day:

Baba Bought me a new hat so i decided to do a little modeling while others opened some gifts haha. Every year we get Pajamas on Christmas Eve and this year Mom got me Snoopy ones lol! (At least they didn't get me and my sister matching ones like they use to when we were younger)

I don't have any other good ones to post from today but hopefully sometime i can get pictures off the digital camera.

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday! xoxoxo

Its beginning to look a lot like Christmas

2008-12-14T19:39:00.001-08:00

Cute snowball lights on the shelf in the livingroom.

My phone doesn't take the best pictures...but the white lights
hanging are giant ornaments.

Our Christmas Tree....it has over 900 lights on it!
No ornaments yet they are going up tomorrow night.

2008-12-14T19:10:00.000-08:00

I skipped a day yesterday but it was a looooooooooooong day so here is what happened...

Well, the funeral for Calvin was yesterday and it was a nice service but such a sad sad day. Me and Sarah got there around 1 for the showing and she had a little break down before even going into the room. She composed herself and we headed in. We walked slowly up to the front where his casket was and while waiting for the line to move we were looking at pictures that his family had put up of different points in his life and well that got me started crying. Its just not fair that he's gone at the age of 22! He barely got to live his life! When it was finally got to be our turn to see him...i was hesitant because the last time i saw someone in a casket was my Grandma and that didn't end well for me...but i was fine and he looked good. You would never see Calvin without a two liter of Dr. Pepper with him and so in his casket with him was a two liter of Dr. Pepper and also the sports section of the news paper. He was all set! We met up with some of our friends and hugged, cried and laughed through out the entire thing and I just wish it wasn't something like this that brought us closer together. We then went to the cemetery for the burial which was even worse because that was our final goodbye to a good friend. R.I.P. Calvin

Today was a much better day! Mom woke me up around 11 this morning and Me, her and my sister went out to buy me some new clothes for Christmas. Andrea got hers last weekend so i was excited to go get mine. I ended up getting two bags full of stuff from Old Navy...i love that store! Then tonight me and my family put up our christmas decorations in the house. I will post some pictures for everyone to see :)

Thats it for tonight. I will update again tomorrow...im surprised im doing as good keeping up with this! Go Me! hehehe!

2008-12-11T14:43:00.000-08:00

Calvin's picture was in the newspaper this morning and the calling hours are Saturday. Im not looking forward to going but I definitely want to be there for all my friends. I still can't believe this happened and im still shocked and i don't think until being there at the showing will it really hit me.
*sigh* This should have never happened

Other than that nothing much has happened today. I hope everyone has had a good day :)

xoxo

Chiropractors, Webcams and Love... OH MY!

2008-12-10T13:58:00.000-08:00

Not much has happened today...I couldn't sleep last night because my jaw kept feeling like it was going to lock up. UGH! It didn't hurt but felt really tight and so that kept me up a long time. Finally got to sleep around 5 am! This morning my sister came in to wake me up around 11 and i told her to go away haha. I slept about an hour more and then finally woke up. I didn't have my pill last night so today i have a tiny headache. Hopefully mom will get my refill soon! I went with Sarah to the Chiropractor...she has the start of Carpel Tunnel syndrome and he is working out the muscles in her forearm. Plus she gets her necked cracked and all that fun stuff. I told her doc about how my knees are bad and how tight the muscles are in my legs to the point i can't straighten them. He told me that he would defenitely check them out if i made an appointment. So woohoo!

I got a Christmas package today from an online friend. She got me a webcam which i was surprised to see! Its a lot of fun and the picture above is one of the filters it has. Im gonna have a lot of fun with this thing hehe!

It amazes me everyday the people i have met online and how they are such great caring people and i feel so lucky and so blessed to have each and everyone one of them in my life. Every single one of you have helped me in one way or another and I hope you all know how much you mean to me. Love you all!

xoxoxo

I think...

2008-12-09T16:32:00.000-08:00

I think im going to try and write in here now everyday if i can.
I know if i don't get out what im feeling i will end up having a break down which i have done too many times. Its just hard for me to let me feelings out because i have always kept them in. I know thats bad to do and been told by many to just feel what i feel... but it makes me feel like im complaining and bugging people.
Im still not sure how i feel exactly about the whole Calvin thing. Its still just a shock that he's gone. I almost cried today in the car with Sarah but she looked at me like "Don't do it don't do it" Just because she was driving and I don't think driving and crying would have been a good combo, So again i kept it in.

Living at home has been driving me crazy! One day things are fine the next people could be mean and that up and down everyday drives me nuts. They always wonder why i stay cooped up in my room all the time...well maybe if everyone wasn't so fucking crazy i would come down with everyone once in awhile. I never thought I would say this but I miss Pittsburgh, well really I just miss my apartment. Living by myself was the best....i didn't have to worry about anyone else and could do what i wanted. I forgot how hectic and annoying it was to live with four other people again.

Im done complaining now and will be back tomorrow...lets hope things get a little better

R.I.P. Calvin

2008-12-08T20:29:00.001-08:00

Tonight a friend of mine passed away. He had been in the hospital for two weeks and we thought he was getting better the past few days. He was on a ventilator but was starting to breathe on his own about 60%, but yesterday took a turn for the worst and his organs started to shut down and his parents decided to pull the ventilator out. I cannot even begin to imagine the pain they are going through having to do that to their only son and so close to Christmas. I was never very close to him, but went to school with him since elementary school and we occasionally hung out. He wasn't a bad guy and never deserved this. Life's just not far sometimes!

My friends all still don't know how to feel about everything...im actually not sure about how to feel either. Me and Sarah went to see our friend Julie who Calvin lived with and we all just hung out and talked just remembering him. She's having a very difficult time with this as he was her best friend of 8 years. I think its going to hit her soon and she's going to take it very hard. I just with i could do more for her. But, i guess just being there if she needs anything is really the only thing to do. We don't have any funeral dates yet but im thinking its going to be this weekend or next week sometime.

Thats all for now....

What to do in a Terrorist Attack

2008-12-07T09:25:00.000-08:00

http://ohmygov.com/blogs/whats-so-funny/archive/2008/07/04/what-to-do-in-a-terrorist-attack.aspx?postcat=2651&miid=58&pid=853

I thought this was so funny! Enjoy

My Lisa Williams Night

2008-11-25T07:57:00.000-08:00

We got to Mansfield early because we were meeting Deb and her friends there to get dinner before. Well, we beat Deb by i'd say a half hour so we decided instead of driving to find someplace to eat we would just go eat in the restaurant of the Holiday Inn that was connected to the theater. We had just been joking around saying im sure Lisa is staying here and knows that that crazy girl from her site was already there hours earlier haha! Anyway we got out and started to go into the back of the Holiday Inn when no other then the Lovely Lisa herself came walking out! She was heading over to the theater for sound check!! She didn't have her Make up or Hair Done and still looked just as beautiful as ever! She had had a big smile when she saw us staring at her LMAO! My sister said hi first and that we would see her that night at the show...and if you all could have seen my mom's eyes when she walked up to us they were so BIG! I think they were about to pop out of her head! lolol! I told her that I was Lindsay from her site and she kinda dropped her bag and stepped back and said "Ohhh wow hi!!" It felt so amazing she knew who i was! It was just like two friends catching up after not seeing each other for awhile. I felt totally comfortable with her. So, she gave us all hugs and said to make sure and come get a hug after the show.
After a little while later Deb and her friend got there and I met them outside. It was so amazing to finally meet her in person and was definitely one of the highlights my night!
We finally got dinner and while sitting at our table we kept seeing people walking in...like groups of people. I whispered to Deb..."They are all probably from the site and we don't even know it" hahaha! And some of them were! We met Celia who was so nice and also met Freespirit from Chat :) You both were so nice! Im glad we got to meet!
The show started at 7 and when she walked out she got a standing ovation even before doing anything! hahaha Lisa Rocks!!
She read for about 10 people spending time on every reading making sure everyone understood everything being said and it was amazing!
When the show ended we tried our best to hurry and get up to the lobby to get in line and it was already SO PACKED!!!!!! lol we ended up down these steps in what my sister called "The Dungeon" lolol!
But, once she came out the line started to move quick. It was SOOOOOOOOOOOO hot in there though! OMG we were dying of heat!
Finally, It was my turn to meet Lisa again and she was so gorgeous sitting there with her pink shirt that many of you have seen in other pictures and she is just so stunning!! So, i walked up got my SECOND HUG of the night! She knew exactly who i was again and I gave her the Digital Illustration i did. She said she loved it and was going to frame it :) She then signed my book which says: "Lindsay, Thanks for my picture you are seriously talented! Big Hugs Love Lisa xx <3" and also signed a picture for me.
It was an amazing experience and I can say that if i had the money and a way to Cincinnati I would be there tonight hell if i could i would see her anywhere i could!! haha!

And that was The End of my Lisa Journey!
I will have pictures soon i just have to find the USB cable for the camera and i will post them.

Im Sookie woo!

2008-10-23T20:53:00.001-07:00

You Scored as Sookie St. James

Cooking's great, you friends are great, you are great. The best friend a girl could ask for.

Sookie St. James

80%

Lorelai Gilmore

70%

Luke Danes

60%

Lane Kim

60%

Rory Gilmore

55%

Jess Mariano

30%

Michel Gerard

30%

Emily Gilmore

20%

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

2008-10-08T22:37:00.001-07:00

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Family history - Pedigree

ART SHOW!!

2008-08-29T14:12:00.000-07:00

My paintings were recently accepted into the student show here at the school. I was very very excited!!! I didn't win any prizes but that wasn't really why i entered. I knew this would look great on my resume and since i am graduating (IN 2 WEEKS!!!!) I figured i would do a school activity before i left. I look at it everyday i walk into the school. hehehehehehe! Its amazing to actually see something i did up in the gallery. Makes me feel like a REAL artist.

Meet Steve Dicker

2008-05-20T10:53:00.000-07:00

Shakin' his groove thang.
He's a natural dancer.
He sees all.
How you doin'?
Steve Dicker wants YOU!
Steve Dicker will Karate Kick your ass!

2008-04-24T14:11:00.001-07:00

Me and my roommate Heather went to the mall yesterday and I bought a power rangers keycap! haha! I love it so much! Reminds me of when i was younger, because i loved loved loved power rangers and wanted to be the Pink one.

Phat New Kicks

2008-04-21T08:45:00.001-07:00

These are pretty much what they look like a few little differences. I heart them!

New Book

2008-03-29T19:26:00.000-07:00

I love new books yay!

2008-03-05T11:57:00.000-08:00

Im obsessed.

Fun Stuff

2008-02-26T14:11:00.000-08:00

52%

44%

324 WATTS

Hey Jude

2008-02-26T10:33:00.000-08:00

How cute is this?? Hehe!

Autograph

2008-02-25T08:46:00.000-08:00

I went home this weekend and when my mom came to pick me up she told me that i had a surprise at home. I was excited wondering what it could be! Well, when i got home it was an envelope with Gilmore Girls up in the corner where the return address goes. I had no clue what it could be because its been years since i sent a letter to any of the cast members (haha im such a dork) and when i opened it it was another autograph from Scott Patterson!! So, i know have two autographs and a letter from him. It was pretty exciting because i still love him! I will never lose my Luke/Scott Love!

WoooHooo!

2008-02-15T12:04:00.001-08:00

I just registered for my second to last quarter here at AIP! It feels good!

Shoes Shoes and More Shoes!!

2008-02-14T10:57:00.000-08:00

I want them all!

Corporate Identity

2008-02-05T14:42:00.001-08:00

Here are the pictures...Photobucket is back up yay! And blogger likes to change the colors on my stuff. There really isn't black in the first one.

Pre Portfolio Hell (haha) Sounds so much worse than it actually is

2008-02-05T13:45:00.000-08:00

Its been awhile since i have wrote anything so here it goes.

Yesterday I was supposed to turn in a pre-portfolio which is where the school can see how I am doing this far. So, I got all my stuff together and I was ready to turn it in which we have to do electronically in a certain teachers drop box. Well, when I got to her box, the folder with my name on it was not there. In fact there were no folders at all. All this was due by 5 pm that night and it was about 3ish so i sent her an email letting her know that there were no folders and I didn't know if maybe she wanted to me to just make one and put it in there or if I was just weird and was going into the wrong section. I haven't gotten any response back from her yet and its really annoying. My teacher last night told me that he would let her know that I had everything done in time if need be. I guess i shouldn't worry that much about it but still wouldn't that drive you crazy too not to get a response back?

I was going to add in a picture of the logos i have been working on for my corporate identity class but photobucket is down and I can't save it. Next update will have pictures.

Yuck!

2008-01-21T15:21:00.001-08:00

I have the flu :(

2008-01-14T08:06:00.001-08:00

I think I have my slogan!

I want more, I want Dorito's!

Hehehe!

Art Direction

2008-01-14T06:48:00.001-08:00

I am in class right now and I have come to the conclusion I do not want to be an Art Director. Im crossing it off my list. It doesn't call to me it doesn't say "hey lindsay be an art director you will be rockass at it" Nope nothing like that.

Here is our first assignment for the class I thought i would share:

The 2008 One Show College Competition

Our Client is Doritos

We are "Taking a snack icon to the next level.
They want us to celebrate doritos larger-than-life status by making Doritos advertising that is iconic as Doritos. Treating the brand and product like an icon. Use the three unique product attributes- intense favor, loud crunch, and triangle shape.

We can make:
Prints (3 ads only)
TV
Innovative Marketing
or Interactive (meaning its own search engine etc etc.)

Awards and Honors:
One Show Pencils will be awarded to the winning copywriters, art directors and designers. a $3000 Gold, $2000 Silver and $1000 Bronze prize will be awarded to each winning team. All winners and finalists will be published in the One Show Annual.

All awards will be presented at the One Show Education Festival in May in New York City and will become part of the Traveling One Show Exhibition.

Lets see what happens!

2008-01-07T05:00:00.000-08:00

Today has already been the start of Lindsays terrible no good very bad day!

2008-01-05T09:31:00.000-08:00

Hristos Si Rodi Everyone :)

Winter Schedule

2008-01-04T11:27:00.000-08:00

Monday-Art Direction-8am to Noon
Monday-Corporate Identity-6pm to 9:35

Tuesday-Speech-2:45 to 4:45

Wednesday-American Art History-6pm to 9:35

Thursday-Speech- 2:45 to 4:45

Grandma

2008-01-04T11:23:00.000-08:00

I miss her :(

New Cousin

2007-12-25T19:27:00.000-08:00

This is my new little cousin Ryan. He is about a month old :) I just got to meet him tonight. He's such a little cutie!

Me And My Favorite Sister

2007-11-30T22:37:00.001-08:00

Christmas 1987

Christmas 1988 or 1989

Awwww! Kisses!

Disney Baby!!

Feel the love

LOL ohh man that was a fun night...and no i wasn't trying to touch her boob it just looks that way.

Craziness!

<3<3<3

Fires are fun!

2007-11-30T22:28:00.000-08:00

The Whittler

In charge of whittling the sticks we use to make the best smores in the world!

The Gatherer

In charge of gathering the sticks to keep the fire going to keep everyone warm.

The Fire Starter

In charge of starting the wonderous fire!

Beautimous!

Grandpa

2007-11-30T22:07:00.000-08:00

How effing cute is he!!?!!

RIP Grandma I love you

2007-11-24T19:25:00.000-08:00

Tonight at 8:05 my Grandma passed away. I was the last one to tell her goodbye. I kissed her on the forehead and told her goodbye and left because my family was leaving and we weren't more than 30 seconds up the street when my uncle called and said that we needed to come back.
She was one of the greatest women i have ever known and im just glad that she is in a happier place now. I will miss her so much.

2007-11-22T22:01:00.000-08:00

I would say this has been the Worst and Best Thanksgiving all rolled into one. The Worst because my grandma is dying and everywhere i looked someone was crying after going and seeing her laying in her bed. But it was also the best because my whole family was together. I didn't think i had anymore tears left to cry but was i wrong. Its just a waiting game now and i don't think she isn't going to make it much longer. Tonight or tomorrow i think she will go.
I couldn't bring myself to go see her until we were ready to leave. I really miss her :(

I hope you all had a wonderful thanksgiving and were together with your family.

Books, Books and More Books!

2007-11-20T07:09:00.000-08:00

I have a list of books I want for Christmas.

-The Almost Moon by Alice Seabold
-Why Mom's Are Weird by Pamela Ribbon
-Love is a Mix Tape by Rob Sheffield
-Third Helpings and Fourth Comings by Megan McCafferty
-Look Me in the Eye by John Elder Robison
-Mozarts Sister by Rita Charbonnier
-The Myth of You & Me by Leah Stewart
-Charm City by Madison Smartt Bell
-A Piece of Normal by Sandi Kahn Shelton
-Wolf Boy by Evan Kuhlman

Maybe if im lucky Santa will bring me a few.

Puppy Dance

2007-11-09T15:00:00.001-08:00

So Sad

2007-10-10T07:08:00.000-07:00

My best friend Sarah's cat Charlie was put to sleep the other day after a tumor he had (the vet said it was the size of a softball) had burst. If they would have done surgery he wouldn't have made it through. I will miss him very much he was my little buddy. R.I.P Little Charlie <3

A trip to Brandywine Falls

2007-09-27T10:19:00.000-07:00

Yesterday me and Sarah went to Brandywine Falls. It was a beautiful day! I took this picture while in the car.

When we got there these are the steps we had to walk down and up again to get to the falls and back the car. I hate stairs!

While walking down the stairs and all around on the wood people have carved their names and stuff into it. I hate that!

After we got down the stairs we stopped and looked at all the rocks. They were so beautiful i just kept taking pictures.

Finally we got down to the falls!

We stayed and looked for about 5 minutes and then left. It was really hot. We broke a weather record for heat that day and we were sweating our asses off!

After we left the park, we headed out again and I had know idea where Sarah was taking me! We unded up in a place people call "Hell Town" Its really creepy at night but it actually turned out to be really really pretty durning the day.

Overall it was a fun day and im glad we got to go. Im sad i have to go back to school soon! Im going to miss my Sarah Marie :(

My Little Jasper Marie

2007-09-16T10:45:00.000-07:00

I love this picture of him :) He is such a cutie pie!

Accordion

2007-08-30T12:25:00.000-07:00

This is a project I did for my photoshop II class. Im very proud of it :D What do you think?

Broken

2007-06-02T21:16:00.000-07:00

Yep thats right! Im broken! I will be in this splint for a month! booooooooooooooo!

Pictures

2007-06-02T09:03:00.000-07:00

I haven't uploaded this thing in so long! I've been scanning pictures like crazy lately so i thought i would share some :)

<< Softball picture from middle school
Go Lions!

<< I was always an artist

<< Taken in Hawaii...oh and see those sandles the ocean ate them!

<< Baby me :)

Reese Witherspoon

2007-05-04T19:01:00.000-07:00

2007-05-03T15:10:00.000-07:00

More Drawings

2007-05-03T10:05:00.000-07:00

All these are done with number 2 pencil.

John Mayer Poster

2007-04-18T05:45:00.000-07:00

This was my final for my Digital Illustration class last quarter. Blogger messed up the colors the circles are supposed to be dark purple and the green is supposed to be darker I don't know what happened. I loved this project !

2007-04-17T12:03:00.000-07:00

Marker Rendering of Milo Ventimiglia

The last four are portraits i've done

Twiggy

2007-04-17T09:17:00.000-07:00

This was from my first quarter here at AIP.

2007-04-16T14:09:00.000-07:00

Self Portrait

Marker Rendering I did of my sisters friend Alicia.
Life Drawing Woman on Chair

I think im just going to show my art work here. I never really have anything good to blog about but i love showing my art work to other people and hearing what they have to say about it. So please let me know what you think about everything :)

Final Painting

2007-03-13T07:48:00.000-07:00

So here is the finished painting of Mr. George W. Bush. Tell me what you think :)

2007-03-07T18:24:00.000-08:00

Coming soon the finished painting of George Bush. I turned it in on Monday and got some good feedback on it so im hoping I got a somewhat good grade. Keep your fingers crossed for me!

I am currently working on a poster for my graphic illustration class. It is of the singer John Mayer and I am pretty excited about it! I can't wait to show it off.

For Kasey

2007-02-21T17:48:00.000-08:00

This is a drawing I am doing for my illustration class. We had to mix Polictics and the Circus. This is just the beginning though I still have to transfer it onto cardstock and paint it. I'll post the finished product when im done.

The Fancy Party

2007-02-20T19:20:00.000-08:00

This is what my friend Troy called the "Fancy Party" we were supposed to be dressed up but I don't have any dressy clothes here at school with me so a polo shirt had to do. Enjoy the madness! hehe!

Hiiiiiiiiyaaaaaaa!

Just chillin'

Three of me! Be afraid be very very afraid!

Empty :(

Troy loves his shoes!

Hahaha! wow!

Its like a really bad sears portrait.

Could it be Bato?

2007-02-04T19:42:00.000-08:00

So I went home for the weekend and me and Baba were going through some old pictures and in the box she had there was a bunch of old birthday cards from when my mom was little. I was joking around and said that wouldn't it be cool if when I opened one of the cards money fell out? Ha! Well, I pick up this picture not to long after I said that and when I opened it a penny fell out. It was a picture of my great uncle Bato. I think he left me a little present after I said that about the money. Now if only I could get him to leave a little more then a penny.

2007-01-13T08:52:00.000-08:00

So, I decided that I was going to stay in Pittsburgh this weekend instead of going home with my family because I have homework to do and a bunch of stuff, but I kind of hate it. I mean I don't really have any friends here that I can hang out with.(How sad is that? I have been at this school for over a year and have very few friends.) I have music, tv, and homework to keep me busy until Sunday or Monday when my sister gets back. But I can only watch so much tv before I want to throw the remote at it because there is nothing on. I should have just went home.

Ohh and Hristo Si Rodi everyone! Serbian Christmas was last week but today is when my family is celebrating it. (Yep, thats right I skipped having christmas dinner to stay here and do homework. How dumb can I get?)

Crappy Day

2006-12-14T06:27:00.000-08:00

Yesterday we such a crappy day. Well, it didn't start out crappy but by the time my class was over last night it was. That class was such a joke! Our professor didn't like anything anyone did, and when we asked him as a class what we were doing wrong did he help us? No! He said "Its all in the sylibus." What the hell? Isn't it the job of the professor to help us? I spent 8 hours on my final project and he didn't even say it was good or the concept was good he just said that I could have changed it to make it better. He never gives out positive helpful feedback. Plus, he doesn't ever collect the projects!! So its like I spent all that time doing nothing. Im just glad that its all over. I never have to go back to that class ever again.

Today is my last day of classes of my 6th quarter. I can't believe how fast its going! It feels like just yesterday I started here.
Here is my schedule for next quarter:
Mondays from 12:45-4:45 I have Illustration
Tuesdays from 12:45-4:45 I have Electronic Design
Wednesdays from 10:00-12:00 I have Math
12:45-4:45 I have Digital Illustration
I have off on Thursdays yay!
Friday from 10:00-12:00 I have Math again

I think next quarter is going to be pretty good :) But it might get a little crazy with two illustration classes. Lets hope not though!

2006-12-11T12:03:00.000-08:00

Countdown till Christmas Break

3 days!

WooHoo!

2006-12-07T14:23:00.000-08:00

Well, I am almost done with my sixth quarter! Yay! One more week and I will be free for christmas break.

Word of the Day

2006-12-01T19:10:00.000-08:00

The word of the day today (thanks to my sister) is:

ROCKASS!!!

Ahahaha!

2006-11-27T14:06:00.000-08:00

I just had to change my password because I forgot what it was LOL thats sad!

Here is another project I did for my photoshop class. Let me know what you think!
We had to make a book cover for a Typography Book.

Bored

2006-11-12T13:05:00.000-08:00

A few of my favorite Quotes

"Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive."
~Elbert Hubbard

"There are two ways to handle a women, and nobody knows either of them."
~Kin Hubbard

"Clothes make the man. Naked people have little or no influence in society."
~Mark Twain

"A black cat crossing your path signifies that the animal is going somewhere."
~Groucho Marx

"My mom said she learned how to swim when someone took her out to the lake and threw her off the boat. I said "They weren't trying to teach you how to swim."
~Paula Poundstone

"The formula for water is H2O is the formula for an ice cube H2O squared?"
~Lily Tomlin

"I want my childred to have all the things i couldn't afford. Then i want to move in with them."
~Phillis Diller

"I am not a glutton- I am an explorer of food."
Erma Bombeck

"Have you ever noticed? Anybody going slower than you is an idiot, and anyone going faster than you is a maniac?"
~George Carlin

and finally

"Before you criticize someone. You should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you are a mile away from them, and you have their shoes." -Frieda Norris

2006-10-31T16:08:00.000-08:00

Happy Halloween everyone!

First Photoshop Project

2006-10-26T12:19:00.000-07:00

This is my first photoshop project. What do you think? Its in memory of my Great Uncle.

Victoria Newman

2006-10-24T08:48:00.000-07:00

Now I know you are all going to be jealous but guess who I just stood next to waiting to cross the street on my way to school? Yes, thats right the one and only Victoria Newman from the Young and the Restless! Now she may not have been on the show for awhile now but she is the one that i remember the most. The reason I am excited about this is because for years i had to watch this freakin' soap with Baba and getting to see her in real life was fun! I just wish I would have worked up enough nerve to talk to her. I could have gotten a picture with her but noooooooooooooooooooooooo....im a dork and didn't think about the lovely camera on my phone. Maybe i'll catch her next time.

2006-10-23T15:01:00.000-07:00

Look what i made! Photoshop is fun! hehe!

Incredible!

2006-10-19T15:38:00.000-07:00

If you like music with the mix of funk, soul, and blues, you will love Nikka Costa. She is incredibly awesome. She is the daughter of Don Costa who is a legendary pop music producer, and also Frank Sinatra's God Daughter.

Here album Everybody Got Their Something is amazing and I demand everyone to go out and buy it now. Go on...i'll wait here.

Bad Luck!

2006-10-17T13:51:00.000-07:00

Today has been a bad, bad day! On my way to school today I ended up Walking through a big puddle of water that came up to my ankles (it didn't look that big), then I drop my phone and the back popped off so im chasing pieces around on the ground trying to put it back together before it gets to wet (thank god it still works, Next im standing at the street corning waiting to cross and I get splashed by a car going by, but just part of my legs. By the time I got to the school I was soaked from the knees down. SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKY!!

Well, im done complaining now. I hope everyone else has had a better day then I have!

Why Girls Are Weird

2006-10-15T10:52:00.000-07:00

Everyone should read this great book by the incredible Pamela Ribon. (Or Pamie as she is know to many people) She has gone from doing Gilmore Girls re-caps on the website Televison Without Pity to writing her own books. Here is one reason why I think you should read this amazing book:

Backwards Jumping Jacks (and why There is a Bruise on the Back of My Leg)

10 August

Maybe you're one of those perfect people that pay for a gym membership and then always, always go. Every morning you bounce off with your perfect ponytail and your teeth gleam as your perfect little mousy voice goes "Im off to the gym!"

Im not one of those people. Im not even close. I forget to exercise until someone reminds me. I don't like to run unless my life is threatened. I certainly only try to break a sweat during sex.

Also, its hot in Texas. It's particulary hot here in Austin this time of year, and it gets so hot that its physically impossible to move more than a few inches at a time. You have to remain as still as possible, only shifting to lower the air conditioner. It's the only reason i'm still coming to work, since I don't have A/C in my apartment. It's so ridiculously hot that we air condition outside this time of year. Amusement parks like Six Flags don't want a thousand people dropping from heat stroke while waiting in line for the Log Flume, so the outdoor areas have overhead cooling units. Mmm, Lovely Overhead Cooling Unit. Why don't you move into my apartment building?

Still can't understand what kind of hot i'm talking about? You try it. Lock yourself in your bathroom, turn on the shower at its hottest setting, and put on a few sweaters. That's what it feels like to walk outside these days. Go sprint in that, bitch.

There's this wedding coming up that I mentioned before, and I'm pretty sure that as my friend was measuring my hips she was shaking her head and sucking her teeth. I could be horrible here and mention that she was measuring my hip to foot distance I noticed that the hair on the top of her hair was thinning and I could see her scalp. But that would be mean and i'm not a mean person so I didn't say that. I don't know where you heard that.

Since I just broke down after seeing my measurments on paper yesterday, I decided to grab an old Tae Bo tape and work out. You remember Tae Bo, don't you? With everyone's favorite scary, sweaty, black man, Billy Blanks? His name's a registered trdemark, don't you know.

How could you not want to read something like that? LOL! Its one of the most hilarious books I have ever read and I highly recomend anyone to read it. And if you are curious about other things Pamie has wrote check out her awesome blog
www.pamie.com

Jim Gaffigan-Hot Pockets!

2006-10-06T09:53:00.000-07:00

Have you ever heard of the comedian Jim Gaffigan?? He is so hilarious! Check him out! My sister is the one that got me hooked. While on break from school we went home for two weeks and I swear for two days straight we watched his special on comedy central. Check him out! You will thank me.

First Post

2006-10-05T15:39:00.000-07:00

I really don't know what to write about. This is my first post and to tell you the truth im not that interesting. Im gonna try and keep up with this and write down everything that is going on in my life because I think that it will help me a lot to get stuff off my chest.